Inpatient II

continuation of Inpatient

lt took three attempts to break Erich. Then finally he lay perfectly still, like the body on the coroner’s table, his breath inaudible, his eyes glazed over, dazed and so very tired. His forehead was wet with sweat, strands of blond hair sticking to it, and his lips were crusted with milk and blood and puke. The guards were standing by, lined up like little school boys, as once again the doctor fed the tube down Erich’s throat. His gagging reflex gone, it slid over his sore flesh and down into his stomach. She poured milk into the funnel and removed the tube again. He was barely awake. The doctor looked at her watch and counted some minutes to ensure ingestion. Once she was satisfied by the amount of time passed, she nodded to her stout helpers.

“Very good, you sweet thing,” she said and squeezed Erich’s cheeks in a grandmotherly way, “that wasn’t so terrible now, was it?” And turning to the strongest guard, she ordered to return him to his cell.

The big one, who didn’t look very bright, picked Erich up and like a young bride he carried the light body in his arms, down empty corridors, past iron doors and back to the little rebel’s cell. In that tiny room the light was electrical and harsh, there were no windows, and no bed, and they were alone now, the guard and the prisoner. The Russian laid Erich down on the floor. He closed the heavy door and returned to the prisoner, who remained collapsed as he had placed him, too weak to move of his own accord. The Russian sat down, squatting next to Erich. He patted him on the head with his big heavy hand.

“You’re very pretty,” he said in broken German, “very little and very pretty.”

Erich slowly opened his eyes. There was an expression of uncertainty and unease in them. He was terribly exhausted, but he dimly understood that something was wrong, he was nauseous and it was not just due to the previous ordeal and the liquid in his stomach and guts. 

The Russian’s hand was still on his forehead, caressing him with heavy strokes like a good dog. “Pretty blond boy,” he said and smiled down on him and then he grabbed Erich by the shoulders and turned him on his stomach and straddled him with his big thighs. Now Erich understood the nature of the situation. He groaned under the weight of the man, he made an attempt to escape, but he could not make his body move and his muscles twitched weakly.

The Russian pulled down the prisoner’s slacks, which were much too big on his tiny, starved frame.

The Russian murmured, “pretty boy, good boy.” And he ran his hands over the exposed skin, the curve of his buttocks and the soft skin between them. An unreasonable, disproportionate panic got hold of Erich, when he felt the probing fingers, but his numb body wouldn’t obey him and the fear ran wild it, like electric current trapped within. Even speaking was terribly hard and he trembled with each word. “Please don’t,” he whispered, his voice coarse and breaking.

“Quiet,” the Russian said and he hit Erich on the back of the head so hard the sudden contact with the floor cracked one of his teeth and the taste of blood on his gums was fresh. As he lay panting and dizzy from the blow, the Russian unbuckled his own trousers. He was only half-hard and stroked himself to erection with one hand while his other proceeded to fondle Erich’s arse, squeezing the little fat that was left on it.

“So cute,” he said.

Erich could smell the pungent stench of his cock and then he felt it on his skin, thick and hot and slick with precum. For a moment he hoped that this would be enough to satisfy the guard, just to rub his need on him, to hump him a bit, a personal relief and gesture of humiliation, like pissing in his face. Then he pulled him up by the hips and thrust into him. Erich cried out. The Russian hit him again, like a misbehaving beast of burden. The small body wanted to resist his assault, it trembled, the limbs twitched, the mouth emitted low whines, but he broke him in, inch by inch, with cruel determination, somehow making that fat cock fit, stuffing his guts and tearing him open. He leaned over Erich’s shoulder, panting in his ear, embracing him, covering the small body whole, pressing him flat on the floor, like lovers. “Bubi, you’re so tight,” he said breathlessly and, grunting like a pig, he slid his cock in him all the way. Crushed and impaled and sick with pain, Erich threw up in spasms. The Russian moaned in pleasure and kissed him wetly on the neck, whispering words of endearment for the pretty boy. And he fucked him hard and ruthless for some excruciating minutes. Afterwards he left the priced prisoner lying flat on his face in a puddle of sick, noticing with some pride that his come too was running out of the man. It didn’t occur to him to cover up his crime as he thought anyone who could come across the evidence would take his own share.

What about Wattpad?

acsedolpha:

wir-kommen-wieder:

Wattpad’s guidelines seem absolutely crippling. No pornographic content, no rape, no hate groups? No thanks.

The community in Wattpad is quite different IMO

The problem we’ve been having is a strict and frankly blind application of community guidelines getting us deleted, because writing from a racist pov is the same as being racist, writing about murderers means you glorify them and writing about people being raped in the most brutal unpleasant fashion is the same as condoning rape (whereas a traditional tale of ravishing is of course perfectly fine and doesn’t give anyone the idea that no means yes)… mhm, can’t speak for all of you but I guess they’ve seen right through me here!

I don’t mind the community here, but the idiotic moderation is an issue and any place that doesn’t allow gross and violent and sick and wrong content already gets the big L from me personally.

St. Lamberti

On this cursed day I am in MĂŒnster, above me the black clouds lining the sky with their bellies silver from the sun they hide. Away from my native Rheydt the city feels so familiar, yet so foreign. I am not at home here. Yet here, cornered by the most ridiculous gesture of fate, the past weighing down on my ankles and the present tight around my wrists I am myself as ever – for now the future gives me wings, and for the first time in my life I know what I want – what I covet. Der Tod. It is MĂŒnchen itself that wraps her coils around my mind in her vigour bold as ever, the days and nights raging in my thoughts like the eye of a storm. 

There is one single candle in the laced darkness of St. Lamberti, pouring its shaky, tired light through the stained glass on the streets of the city – without the shame of its size.

I know I want him with the eternity of that daring, shivering flame. Der Tod ist ein Meister. Like a cheap wine circling in my veins and churning my stomach in the frosty, muddy paths of Rheydt, a craving echoes in my body wave after wave and I sway, sway, sway
 I know what he wants – to hold a thousand men and their thousand sons in the palm of his hand. And I want him with the grandeur of the words he drips on the paper, slithering across his skin like the black ink, trickling down the folds of his fingers. I want all of him – zeitlos, unbegrenzt – until it goes through me like an endless spring, like a white-hot knife through the snow. Der Tod ist ein Meister aus Deutschland. 

A fire grows and rains on the ruins with ash and cinder. The scorched air rises to the sky, and the fresh wind oozes into the heart of flames, birthing them anew. How cruel! The beauty of the sight betrays the carnage – until the flames exhaust all there was to stand. One day in time shall Hamburg burn like that. 

Yet my death already casts its shadow on today – like St. Lamberti on the tiles I walk upon. The whispers tell of my fate, a tale now more known to me than the word of God. Evangel! I am to share the same end, but remain thrilled, fervent, elated. I have found God!

Der Tod ist ein Meister aus Deutschland sein Auge ist blau. Vater vergib!

daemon AU

aus-der-traum:

The sunlight streams through the lace covering the windows in a
dappled pattern, sending all the cream of the wainscotting and the
blue of the rugs into a washed out haze, dust motes drifting through
the air, all that white and bleached periwinkle
like a photograph left out for years in the sun and they’re  both
still as the figures in a photograph too, Carin in her chair and him
on the floor beside it, his legs tucked under himself – those legs
are going dead and the air is thickening to treacle (even those specs
of dust, in suspended animation now) but Carin’s skin, her wrist,
draped over the arm of the chair, remains so vibrant he cannot tear
his eyes away and his mouth parts slightly as he thinks of pressing
the tip of his tongue to her pulse there, just for one moment.

The plush, stocky body of Ragnar, Carin’s
wildcat daemon
reclines on a little patch of floor where the sun is beating in
hardest, in the relative shadows nearby Ursula has her nose to the
floor, snuffling around, creeping slowly around the perimeter with
her tail in the air and her little paws making small incursions,
drawing back, scuffling forward again, all the while Ragnar’s tail
lilts dreamily from side to side and his eyes are half closed in
pleasure from the warmth beating down on his belly.

Hermann lets out a little sigh and when Carin’s
eyes meet his he finds he’s clenching his jaw so hard it hurts and it
does hurt,
not the grinding of his teeth but how badly he wants to confess that
the only word he can think to describe her is ‘goddess’, that no one
has ever made him feel this way, amazing that someone could matter more than
him, that if she would only give him one single, intimate touch, he
would be hers, utterly, forever and as he’s staring up at her,
feeling like a small boy, Ursula pounces on Ragnar and is instantly
swatted away by those large, heavy paws, swatted and then pounced on
herself at the same as Carin pushes off one of her shoes and presses
her foot into Hermann’s groin and tells him, stay.

@reichblr-ficathon

biting

aus-der-traum:

Skorzeny
sees the contempt in Kaltenbrunner’s face as Schellenberg reaches
tentative fingers the trace the curve of his scar as clear and bright
as a signal flare, though Walter is either blind or dazzled by the
stories he is murmuring about the song of two blades meeting and the
hot, piercing flash of your skin splitting open, a wash of blood to
grin through and the whispered adulation of brotherly hands on
bandages.

Even
when Ernst unsheathes his dagger and turns the edge against Walter’s
cheek and offers to give him a mark to be proud of himself – and
Otto knows that what Ernst no doubt dreams of doing is pulling their
little comrade onto his tiptoes by the hair and forcing the blade past his teeth, to cut away his easy way with words and knack for
politesse – Walter simply smiles until Otto puts his hand on
Ernst’s sleeve and shakes his head: you know that
isn’t how it works.

But then there
are no rules about the weapons of their teeth and Walter bears up
very bravely once they have stripped him down and set about him until the taste of blood lies thick in both their mouths.